I’ve been reading the lessons and I have a number of questions that I would like to ask you.
Whenever I try to meditate, reflect or however you like to call it, I always feel bored and finally give up. I’ve tried everything: from dynamic meditation (Silva) to transcendental meditation and anything else you can imagine. Even though I start off with the best of intentions and mood, I always end up giving up.
My problem with all this (including Morphogenesis) is that I don’t feel passionate for it as much as it seems that I should be. The things I already have are enough for me, so I don’t really yearn for anything so earnestly to make me dedicate time and energy. This goes for other things too, not just meditation. Things are also the same at my job. Some of my friends and other people that I know will do anything to get a new car, eat in posh restaurants and wear expensive clothes. I’m indifferent to all this. But then again, how far can I really get with no fuel?
Another thing is that in the Seeker’s stories, just as in stories like the Peaceful Warrior, or Castaneda’s story, or Redfield’s Celestine Prophecy and in The Alchemist by Coelho, all of the central characters happen to come upon the kind of events that make you say WOW! This is it: something good’s here. The Seeker goes to the island of Samothrace and the Master still manages to find him right in the middle of nowhere. I’ve read all this in books, so it doesn’t really make me go “wow”. I just say “that’s a nice little story” but how do I know that the writer is not just making it up? Is this TRUE or just a little story? How can I trust that there is something of value here? Also, none of these characters come across as being “normal”. None of them have a family, nor do they go to work, nor go home at night, do the shopping and go out with their friends. All the people in these stories are “special”; how can poor, little me identify with these people?
One last thing: this has to do with the things that a person yearns to get. What if one of these things has to do with, let’s say, the stock-market? Does the notion of “harmlessness” apply here too? When I gain something, someone else loses. How can I plan this? Do I just select a share and buy it? Will I then see it going well? What if someone else imagines this share falling? Isn’t this the same with the notion of the Lottery and the conflicting thought-forms?
Thank you in advance.
Good-morning to you and thank you for your query.
I would like to start from the last things you mentioned.
1. With regards to the stock-market. You gaining something doesn’t mean that you will cause damage to others, therefore it’s harmless. But even if you do cause damage to others, you will never incur a karmic punishment in the situation of a competitive game. In this sense, it’s “your thought-form against other thought-forms”, may the best one win!
2. With regards to the notion that “every master and generally anyone who manages to get to an advanced stage must be either unemployed or without a family”: you are very wrong. I can give you several examples of masters who live a “conventional life” parallel to their Work. The same goes for the Greek. Therefore, you shouldn’t feel as if you are at a disadvantage when you’re working or going out with your friends! These amazing stories that you have read in books happen rarely; you do not have to experience such astonishing events for you to achieve your goals. Many people have been enlightened at home with their family or even in the middle of nowhere, when they had no one around, in a simple, straight-forward manner, without any problems.
3. What you do need to be worried about though, is your lack of enthusiasm. If the case was that you only lacked enthusiasm with regards to your inner matters or your professional affairs then I wouldn’t worry. We all have an area in our life which we may feel indifferent to, but at the same time, also have other areas, which we feel passionate for and in which we strive to develop and excel. You give me the impression of someone who is generally apathetic and finds it difficult to become passionate about or be excited for something.
If this is indeed the case with you, then your problem has a name; it’s called crippling depression and is characterised by a total lack of pleasure and of enthusiasm for life. This problem is particularly serious for your inner growth too, because it becomes interpreted as a “lack of inclination”.
The main cause for this goes back to your childhood and your parents, who subconsciously “taught” you through their behaviour, that there is nothing worthwhile in life. That it is nothing but trouble, that it’s one-dimensional, with no passion, no pleasures nor emotional happenings.
I hope you don’t take this the wrong way, but I would suggest that you insist on exercising the technique of the Convergence of the Psychic Powers for this matter. At the same time, you could also start some form of homeopathic therapy, or psycho-therapy (in its broader sense without getting stuck on a particular meaning or form; whatever you feel fits your situation). You will feel like a new person and you will thank me for opening your eyes to a fascinating new reality.